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The Empty Bowl

January 27, 2017

Sky.jpeg

for Teresa

A woman of courage tells me:

After cancer,

I placed an empty glass bowl

in the center of my room,

in the center of my life—

and each day I watched

my own longing to fill it again.

 *

I know this empty bowl she speaks of—

for it is turning in the center

of my heart. And the fire that burns

in that space is so fierce, I want

to do anything to stop the searing—

to fill the bowl again by adding,

bit by bit—all the old pieces of myself,

all the familiar roles and tasks—

to reassemble the known elements

and recreate what the fire

has forever undone.

*

But now in this early dawn –

the bowl shimmers with first light.

It has become a kind of prism

reflecting what is true beyond names.

And though some moments

this space feels like a void,

or a burden, or a loss—

I begin to know it as an offering

from the source of Life itself—

an offering I have refused

so many times before.

*

And so this morning

I am finally ready to receive—

to lift the bowl to my lips

and drink deeply—to taste,

not the bitter sorrow of suffering—

but the sweet medicine

of a new kind of belonging

that is no longer about perfecting

the storyline or proving

the myth of invulnerability.

*

Yes, I have placed an empty bowl

in the center of my life,

in the center of my heart,

and I will not fill it with the debris

of the past—but will cherish

this clear vessel brimming

with infinite sky, and the

voice inside that whispers—

from here, everything is possible.

©Laura Weaver

Laura Weaver.org
**first published on soulpassages.wordpress.com

 

 

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3 Comments leave one →
  1. Alexi permalink
    January 27, 2017 4:18 pm

    Beautiful. I am interested in the meanings of “dawn” and in your “early dawn” as an awakening, a new start or beginning, that is waiting, like the empty bowl, to be filled with life. It is hope.. Love the lines:

    “this clear vessel brimming

    with infinite sky, and the

    voice inside that whispers—

    from here, everything is possible.”
    Thank you.

    • January 28, 2017 3:04 am

      Thank you for your comment and question–yes, new beginnings….and the gift and fullness of that which appears empty.

  2. January 28, 2017 2:53 am

    beautiful!

    Roxanna Smith https://roxannakoppsmith.com this sky, this sky where we live, is no place to lose your wings. so love, love, love. -Hafiz

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