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Untouchable Essence

June 30, 2016


There is a place within

that cannot be destroyed

by flood or fire

by bloodthirsty armies

or devastating illness—

it this untouchable essence of us

that quakes with irrepressible light

and bears the intolerable weight

of all that must be felt to awaken.


When I first remembered myself

after surgery, my own name strange,

both of my breasts removed—

I did not feel loss nor grief, but a love

so ferocious it rolled through me

like thunder, bringing healing rain.


After that, came a knowing

of my own wholeness

beyond any story, beyond

any dismemberment—

this revelation of our luminous body

that remains intact in spite

of all of our sacred shatterings.


And yes, now the landscape

is unrecognizable—

yes, now, there is no old path

to go back to—

yes, now there is the quivering

arrow of this moment

piercing the heart—

the illusion of invulnerability

stripped away, laid bare to this truth.

And so it is. And so we are.


Before I came to this life,

I was shown this world

from the distant shores of it—

and in that moment, I saw

the full arc of my days here,

the exquisite range

of this embodied dreaming.

Oh how beautiful, I cried.

Oh how terrible. 

Oh—This terrible beauty.

And the angel who guided me

simply pointed and nodded,

and said—Yes.

©Laura Weaver



3 Comments leave one →
  1. Edwards permalink
    July 1, 2016 2:43 pm

    That was Beautiful , Words that can be felt thru Sight and Time. I feel you from 2000 miles away. Many Blessing to you.

  2. Robbie Rettmer permalink
    July 1, 2016 5:48 pm

    Dear Laura,

    My heart goes out to you for this deep, profound and life-changing journey.I hope to see you soon in the dance. May your healing continue to bring relief from suffering and grief that is simultaneous transforming into benefit for others.

    With love, Robbie

  3. July 2, 2016 3:30 pm

    So beautiful a portrayal of a journey too deep to assess. Love and healing on this path, Friend.
    Love, Elise

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